|Kate Kelton wearing leather vest by Gita Salem, www.gitasalem.com|
This film was inspired by my young self, something deep and dark from my early teenage years and completely embodied through actress Kate Kelton's performance. I was introduced to poetry as a way to express my feels and words have such a huge impact on paper for me. My girlfriends and I had a book of poetry that we would share with each during passing classes. It was during these days I wrote the poem "You will never know" and half my life later would have never guessed it would be my inspiration for my debut short fashion film.
This one poem that I wrote at the ripe age of 14 years old was the darkest, deepest piece of literature I have written to date. So properly the film the poem was inspired by would need to be dark and feel painful in a way. Experiencing emotion so intensely that I memorized every word of the poem and can still resight it perfectly. To get further into the history behind the poem I do recall writing it after experiencing young love and heartbreak for the first time.
The film is completely me expressing myself, at almost 30 years old, through my 14 year old self or what I know or perceive of her now. What it was like to be here, know her and let her go. In a way, the film you captures the breakdown as it is occurring yet you feel a strong intensity and confidence coming from the character at the same time. A person in their darkness, experiencing hurt, pain and just completely stuck in their emotion strength. The insanity of it is almost creepy because you can feel the sadness through this unknown, almost confusing story of a lovely woman, beautifully dressed, in a cold room. I fear you might be left wanting more and truly get the feeling of being in THE VOID.
Poem "You will never know" written by Devon de la Poer
You will never know
How I feel inside
This burning and bleeding
That I cannot hide
An emptiness from without
That devours my soul
I try and hide it so deep inside
But without a doubt it will appear
Some day in some bad way
I know but you will never know